Drinking on a school night...

It’s been a while since I blogged.  And, to be honest, it’s because I have been in a funk.  Down in the dumps.  Not feeling so hot.  Under the weather.  Whatever way you put it, I have not been in a good place.  Don’t get me wrong, I really love my life.  I feel totally blessed to have such an awesome family, such great friends (old and new), my health, my (itsy-bitsy) house, and my job.  I am pretty damn lucky.  But now and again I just get in to a rut and I need some time to regroup and get out.  It doesn’t help that this time Steve seems to be in a rut too (and two ruts don’t make a right…don’t hold the horrible joke against me, I’m struggling here!).  My rut usually consists of a general lack of motivation, feeling really tired, and just being kind of moody (I can just hear my husband’s voice making a wise-ass comment about how this sounds like me EVERY day…haha).  I stop wanting to run, it makes focusing to work nearly impossible, and I choose to spend any downtime that I do have planted on my couch watching really, really stupid tv (let’s be honest, though, even on my best days I am certainly not watching cnn) instead of being a productive member of society.  And, since I have been feeling this way for a couple of weeks, I have been slacking on my blog.  But, I realized today that my blog might be just what I need to snap out of this!  So, tonight I have poured myself a big glass of malbec with the intention of pouring my thoughts and feelings out on paper… 

So, I am getting older and drinking during the week is not the norm for me.  Don’t get me wrong, I love my margaritas and my mojitos…on a Friday.  And, I couldn’t enjoy my date night dinner without my red wine…on a Saturday.  But, Sunday through Thursday I usually stick to water, milk, and an occasional soda (WOOHOO).  I just can’t hang like I used to.  So I was hesitant to consider drinking a glass of wine tonight.  But as I sit here writing, drink in hand, I have to admit it feels good.  I feel a little bit of freedom.  As a mom, wife, and career woman I think I lose that sometimes.  I get so caught up in working, kids, keeping the house clean (which is usually an epic fail anyway), keeping the kids clean (not usually an epic fail, but not necessarily a success either), and all of that other boring stuff called life that ranges from doing taxes to grocery shopping, I don’t usually get to do a whole lot for myself…like sip a glass of wine while relaxing on the couch.  Tonight just the small act of pouring myself a glass, before I even took a sip, has already made me feel a little bit better.

As I get older, it becomes easier and easier to live my life for other people, to care for other people (i.e., my munchkins), and to get overwhelmed by my to-do’s.  But, at the end of the day, it is really the little things that make me happy and keep me sane.  A glass of wine, a run outside in the spring, a pedicure, reading a book…all of these things make me so happy.  But, they seem to be the things that I can’t find time for and the first things that I let slip when I get in to one of my funks.  Ironic.  But all it takes is one of these things, a reminder of what I love about life (outside of my family), and I seem to get back on track. 

So, thank you.  Thank you for reading my blog and giving me an excuse to write.  And thank you for giving me a reason to pour a glass of red on a school night.  Hopefully reading this will motivate you to grab yourself a glass of red (or whatever your guilty pleasure may be), sit down on your couch and drink it.  Just for you…as if it were a Saturday.

Until next time…